Painful Love
Author: Gabor Timis Copyright 2012
After all the pain, I sew myself shut,
My weakness is that I care too much.
My scars remind me that the past is real.
I want my heart to close, the hurt to seal,
But these relentless memories I feel
Just keep surfacing again and again
Like a deep dark acid rain.
I tear my heart open just to escape,
But I fail, the pains prevail and escalate
Like an unstoppable evil vengeance.
I moan, I cry out for another chance
Please let me rest for a good minute
My suffering overwhelmingly infinite.
It is now crystal clear,
I love you still, my dear.
When you still love someone after they left you, the struggle to keep the pain away is very intense. This poem reflects just such a hard fight … the pain is almost touchable, the anguish too much to bear. Maybe tomorrow it will get better …